Worthy

What comes to your mind when you hear that word? Worthy…..

If you’re like me, instantly what comes to mind is nope, nope I am not. I instantly compare in a split second my “doings” to others I know and calculate how unworthy I in fact am. So of course I need to do more to become worthy, try harder, read more the list goes on.

But what if, let’s just imagine we were created worthy and wanted just for who we are, desired, sought after, longed for not that we are any different than 30 seconds ago. But if someone knew every detail of your life and I mean every detail and longed for you to be in a relationship with them. Even if you hurt that person time and time again or failed them, promised things and never followed through on those promises, but they still longed for you, forgave you every single time and just said I want you forever! It doesn’t seem possible, well at least to me. I mean I have friends that know a lot of my story but none of them know everything and no one can forgive all the time. We really don’t have a model of this type of relationship. I know many people who thought they had something similar for it, only for it to turn awful.  That imagining we could be sought after when they know everything just doesn’t seem obtainable, unless of course we “do” something.

God created us worthy and for a purpose. That purpose is to be in relationship with Him, to love and flourish. God’s treasure is truly the hearts of His people! When I write that or think about that I cant believe it because when you look around that is not what you see and in many cases not what we as individuals have experienced. 

So what happened? Why isn’t this as it was designed? I believe the answer is simple, but extremely complicated, sin. You see in creating us and wanting a relationship with us he allowed for free will so as not to have servants, operating in some robotic yes sir no sir state but free thinking choice making individuals who also wanted relationship. There can not be a true relationship if one person in the relationship is not allowed a choice. But that first sin changed everything. I have been guilty of saying “we live in a broken world” as a trivial phrase, but we do and its not trivial. That brokenness is why we don’t feel worthy. Why there is death, war, sickness, pain, and suffering. It is from that broken place we attempt to feel worthy. How can we? Some of us more than others have experienced broken beyond words, abuse, rape, incest, sickness, death. Here too, in the midst of awful we make choices here too, good ones, bad ones, best ones for the moment, the point is we make them, freely albeit painfully maybe we make choices all day every day.  All the choices have consequences from the smallest decisions to the biggest, some are known immediately and others we may not see the effects of until the end days, just know there are consequences for each and every choice made. None of us are worthy we are all lacking, BUT we are wanted and longed for and thought of as worthy. There isn’t a deed that needs done to enter into the relationship other than to ask. No amount of money or works. Heres the thing, Jesus paid the price. He paid it in full and all you or I have to do to live in that inheritance and become family is ask. Ask Him to come into your life, into your heart to reside there. Acknowledge you want a relationship with your creator. Thats it. You ask He comes and lives in your heart and all your problems go away, you instantly feel worthy and nothing bad ever happens to you again and you are perfect and everything in your life is perfect! Nope, thats not how it works, not at all. I can guarantee this you have hope, less fear and a changed heart that now wants to live a life that honors the sacrifices made to cover the debt of sin. So I am worthy, well yes I am but I don’t always , ok rarely feel that way. Why? Because I still live in the broken world surrounded by lots of people who are broken. Im not perfect and neither are they. This is the all star game of delayed gratification! My reward and my worthy is waiting for me, I have a room in a mansion and a forever spot at a table with my creator. No work can “earn” that just a whisper of an invitation of come Lord Jesus come. I am a daughter of a King for crying out loud! I want to live and act that way and trust me I am trying to let go of what the “world” says and believe in my Father, all while knowing I did nothing to achieve that I was just born. God wants everyone of us saved, just look at 1 Timothy 2:4, Isaiah 45:22 and Peter 3:9 there are plenty more but this can get us started!  For the record I intentionally didn’t include the verses. Why? You might ask. Well because I have found that a few bible teachers I have used in the past use this technique to allow me the reader/listener to look it up and typically I find another verse of meaning to me as well!  I want you to have such an opportunity too! ,    But He is not going to force us, more than anything He wants it to be our choice!

It’s funny as I was writing this last night, I got to a point and stopped and had a little chat with God and let Him know I felt a lot like Moses when He called Him.  Moses made a lot of, mind you, very good points, I realize now, about not being a good talker and that he wouldn’t be able to get his point across very well to pharaoh and if you know that story, God of course made a way and called up Aaron to help Moses speak more clearly! So this morning during my bible time, I’m currently doing a study on end times, there was not 1 but 2 very clear points made to help get this message across! Seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened! So here I sit this afternoon revising and editing, hoping this all makes perfect sense to even just one person, who makes a choice.

Ryan Stevenson – No Matter What – give a listen